30th March 2011.

I hate the fact that you are as stubborn as hell.

It’s been a while.

25th February 2011.

Today marks the very day it first happened in 2006.

I’ll alway remember this day which changed the entire course of how I once lived.

It’s been a really long while since I’ve really blogged as almost every attempt resulted in a post being deleted.

I’ve lost the motivation for almost anything these days.

I’ve feeling fatigue, restless, touchy, frustrated.

I have so many questions that I cannot answer.

Life sucks when you have to think so much about it.

And sometimes, it is not a matter of whether you know how to resolve things.

It is whether you actually have the courage to decide on things.

I think I wasted time and money. LOL!

13th May 2010.

It has been almost 2 weeks from my last blog post and in between that time I’ve spent a total of at least $600 I think? And those damages consist majority spent on food at restaurants,  rental of my Harry Potter look-a-like gown, a Kenko 58mm CPL and this!! MUAHAHA!

$60 Water Bottle/ Thermal Flask! OUCH!

OMG I HEART THIS BOTTLE! HAHAHA! Apart from the fact its a bottle, ITS A CANON L LENS BOTTLE! HOW COOL IS TAT! LOL!

Okay, enough of the crazy talk; back to sobbing at my bank balance. MR. QSR PLEASE IF YOU SEE THIS, YOU KNOW WHAT TO DO!

Damn.

Anyways, I’ve finally managed to clear the remaining stock pics so prepare for a vomit of my favourite shots!

To Punggol with Shu Hao and Katie.

Whatever happened to the Punggol I once knew?!

City Hall with Jojo.

Feet-s.

Qing Ming with the Family.

Into the Light.

East Coast Park.

Resort World Sentosa.

Upper Seletar Reservoir.

And it rained.

To be or not to be?

The Istana.

Where’s the baby’s face in the sun?

Cheers.

Mayday; literally.

1st May 2010.

Well, the first of May really got me thinking.

Firstly, I didn’t get into Business Adminstration in NUS. I got accepted into Computer Engineering instead which sucks IMO.

Damn.

Secondly, I’m starting to feel the pressure of the freaking tsunami of pictures I haven’t even filtered. It’s like how I am running away from reality like how I am still avoiding it right now.

The last thing that got me thinking even harder was what happened on the roads just now. If not for my dad’s quick reaction /jam braking, I would’ve felt that bitch-ass stupid mother fucker’s lousy ass driving skills right at the passenger seat.

Apart from the impulse swearing and gesturing at that mother fucker right in front of my parents, I somehow had to think that life’s really fragile and filled with uncertainty. I mean I’ve already stared death right in the face once before and duh, I’ve won. But still, I won’t be as lucky to win every other coin toss.

I guess it’s time for me to really step up, to learn to dare take that leap.

I need to find back that courage I once had.

It’s just “Oh”.

14th April 2010.

Woah.

Photography never felt so stressful before. When will I ever learn my lesson of having good time management skills. Complacency always sets in before you actually have to decide and that will always lead to one of the shittiest decisions ever made.

And my work’s only half done! I’ve yet to print my contact details and to attach the pics on black backings before submission due this Saturday.

Only after spending 13 hours in front of the computer yesterday (going through my pathetic repository) finally made me realised I don’t have much to choose from and most pictures seriously lacked diversity!

Now that I’ve chosen and sent the pictures for printing, I still think the selected prints still lack a certain WOW factor to be even considered for merits.

Well, fuck it.

I guess it’s not about winning; its more about gaining experience and getting better at things.

Cheers.